Spiritual experience

Something wonderful happened today at church. I was completely blown away by the Spirit for the first time since Sadie's blessing day. I try every day to be kind and honest, so that I can be open to promptings or "love notes" from God. It can be so hard to be still enough to notice these in such a busy world. Well today during Primary, I felt engulfed in His love. I'll build up to that moment...

I was just recently called to be the new Primary chorister (teaching church music to the children) in our church ward. Last week my anxiety was running high and I felt so inadequate in my new calling. Even though the other teachers and pianist were understanding and patient with my mistakes, I just couldn't get out of there fast enough after. I spent the next couple of days wondering why on earth God wanted ME to fill the shoes of the previous chorister who was a music major and clearly felt right at home in the calling... After feeling sorry for myself, and a few pep talks from my husband later, I came to a resolve. God has called me to teach these children because He knows I will give my best. It won't be perfect, and I will surely sing off key a few times.. but I will serve gladly and share the joy I feel when I sing about this amazing gospel with the kids. I realized in that moment that that was all Heavenly Father was asking of me to do. 

So I thought, I can do that! After I made that decision, it was like getting back on a bike. Most of the songs came back to me and my mom had plenty of visuals she let me borrow to teach with. (She served in this same calling for years and it was her absolute favorite place to be. Go figure.) I learned a song in ASL (brought back a lot of memories of my ASL classes I took in high school), a chorus in Spanish, and a lot of extra verses to the songs I grew up singing. Come this morning, I was not just prepared but also EXCITED to teach. I had fun with the kids, and they smiled and followed along.

One of the last songs we sang was "We'll Bring The World His Truth". The kids all stood up (to practice for our program) and sang with the most beautiful voices and unshakeable faith these words:

We are as the army of Helaman

We have been taught in our youth

That we will be the Lord's missionaries

To bring the world His truth

To be honest, I about lost it right then and there... In front of me was a group of 8-11 year old children who are still so young, have yet to experience so many of the struggles that come with growing up.. And they were bearing their testimonies (harmoniously I might add) that they know why they are here. To share the joy of the gospel with the world. It was awesome and they are going to do incredible things! I'm so happy that I get a glimpse of their sweet spirits every Sunday.